sushi with girls <3

had sushi with my gurliess today <3 it was really fun. havent laughed so much in SOOOO long! I even had tears in my eyes.. LOL. I was thinking of flopping on sushi but im glad i didnt! i really needed a pick me up! lately i've been stressing out SOOO much! School, personal situations and just... i dunnoooo. I went with Diana, Jess, Ryda and Annabelle. It was hilarious. We were the loudest ones in the whole resaurant LOL everyone kept staring at us and they caught me everytime i made a funny face which was.. pretty embarassing.. LMFAO. Anywho im looking forward to this weekend! Tomorrow im thinking of going to Fearfest and Sunday i'm getting my nails done :D mani AND pedi woot woot :D I'm hoping theres a family get together on monday! YAY turkey day! mmm yum. But yeah i was just on facebook and i found a really nice note that Ninibeth supposedly stole from someone lmao But yeah this goes out to all you gurls..

I know you miss him
& I know you think you can't be without him .
I know he told you he loved you
& I know he said he'd never leave .
I know although you knew you shouldn't have believed that , you did
& I know you want him more than anything .
I know you spend extra time doing your makeup and hair perfect just incase he looks your way
& I know secretly , you want to bump into him anywhere you go .
I know you get that feeling when you walk past him
& I know you just want him to look your way .
I know he called you his "baby" and "his number one"
& I know he told you he loved you at the end of each of his texts .
I know he told you you was his world
& I know he made you happy .
I know you re-read the saved texts from him that you should have deleted ages ago
& I know you can't figure out what's making you still like him so much even after he's caused you so much pain .
I know your face lights up at the mention of his name
& I know your scared to talk about him to your friends because you don't want them to know how amazing he is .
I know you still get that tingley feeling if he so much as looks as though he's looking your way
& I know that the whole day you'll be analyzing what that look meant .
I know you know he used you
& I know you always forgave him for all his faults no matter what .
I know you smile bigger, talk louder and laugh more when you see him anywhere near
& I know that's because you just want him to notice you again .
I know you compare every guy to him
& I know you'd do anything to prove your love for him .
I know you take his mistakes out on everyone but him
& I know you don't mean to .
I know you read your saved msn conversations you had with him everynight
& I know you cry everytime .
I know you think you won't care for anyone as much as you cared for him
& I know you tell everyone your 'obviously' over him .
I know that you don't know that I can see right through that .
I know you listen to the songs that remind you of him everynight
& I know you cry yourself to sleep .
I know you'd do anything to be perfect for him
& I know if it meant you had to stab yourself the next day after seeing him only if it meant spending a whole day with him, you'd do it .
I know you can't figure out what's so different about him to all the other guys you've been with previously
& I know he's the reason you look in the mirror too much .
I know you get that feeling every time you get a text , just because of the slight chance it might be him
& I know anyone can see the hurt in your eyes when you find out it isn't .
I know you cant figure out why he left you
& I know you'll never get an answer to that question .
I know that .
Trust me .
Now listen ,
I know he doesn't miss you
& I know he doesn't look at you twice .
I know that if he does catch your eye , it's because your staring at him and he's just looking around .
I know your texts to him were deleted a long time ago ,
along with the msn conversations
& I know he's dating a new girl now.
I know for a fact that he doesn't compare her to you .
I know he doesn't have feelings for you anymore
& I know he just doesn't care .
I know he doesn't love you anymore .
He never did .

P.S.
I know you still miss him .
Even after reading this and realizing someone else felt exactly the same way about him that you do now .
But trust me ,
the girl he's dating now will feel exactly how you felt .
Remember you gotta be strong ,
keep your chin up
& head held high .
You will get over him .
I know .