Billy and Diana's Birthday

I've Learned by Omer B. Washington

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it,
there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you'll see them.
I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love
and be loved.
I've learned...

the CNE!

The Queen and her Loyal Bitches.. KIDDING LOL

LMFAO.. this was the only decent picture of the boys holding me up.. everything else was either more blurred than this.. or they lifted me too high so my heads cut off... LOL
okay this happend yesterday but whatever i got home around 2 in the morning that night.. or mornign whatever.. LOL so i jus crashed on my bed that night. cne was LIVE!! Morning honestly was BORINGG.. if ya wanna have fun at cne.. go at night! thats when the fun begins! met tons of new ppl as well as old friends there :) went on a few rides.. wasted some money but whatever right? whatever makes ya happy :D mhmm so i rate CNE 5/5 AT NIGHT :) def going there again :D

dt bruno superbad day

Let me just say this movie was WHACK. Borat was much better. Altough some parts were funny.. i guess this movie didn't really have a good plot.... My friends told my how it was disgusting and nasty. I still went to go see it though and they were pretty much right.. :( oh well. So yeah today i just bussed to downsview and met up with David Luuzerrr. We went to chill downtown. We looked for an Ed Hardy hat for him. He has been wanting it since last year LOL. The conclusion was him just waiting until they come out with more styles.. LOL. Anywho after that we watched Bruno.. ughh.. LOL We had to get a ticket for aliens in the attic and then just go into bruno.. I went to get some clothes at Forever 21 and then we just got on the subway cuz Downtown is really boring in the daytime. On the subway we really didnt know where we were going and didnt know what to do. So David invited me over to his place. It was nice catching up with him. It was pretty fun actually. It was really nice to know that he kept everything I've ever given him. We watched Superbad that night. His mom was funny she kept tryna give me Aveeno Body Wash LOL and she kept making us eat her food which david HATES. Anywho when it got pretty late David drove me home! Thank god cuz buses weren't running at that time anymore. I was actually thinking of coming home early but he offered to drive me home so why not right? :D First time seeing him drive. It was soo hilarious and cute at the same time.. aww David growing up! haha. Well that was my day. I haven't even been on this for so long.. But whatever. Diana asked me to go to the beach tomorrow! and TANNN!! Its bad for you though :O so i probably wont yahhhhhhh bye.

"You must learn to love yourself before you can love others."

I just need to be alone right now. I can't handle the pressure to be perfect. Although you don't pressure me or expect me to be perfect, when I'm in a relationship i believe that i should be giving my all. Not just a part of it. I wish i could stay and be dedicated to you, learn more about you, and maybe even love you. But I can't. It's not fair to you and i wouldn't be staying true to myself. I care about you so much. Don't think it was easy letting go because it wasn't. I haven't even completely let go yet. You're every girl's dream guy. You're generous, extremely caring, funny and handsome. In the horrible state I'm in now emotionally, i don't think that i deserve you. You deserve a girl that could love you unconditionally and make you happy. Yeah I made you happy but I just have way too much emotional baggage to be in a relationship. There's a lot you don't know that has happend in my life. Yeah I look like im happy all the time and i have the perfect life. But that's not the case. I'm still stuck in the past. I have a wall up in front of me that is not letting anyone in. Maybe one day in the future i could be that girl that could make you happy again, but just not right now. I guess we just had bad timing. I'm just emotionally unstable. I hate admitting that but its true. I need alone time to clear my thoughts and heal myself from everything. I need to find the real me.