"It's the worst feeling in the world, to love and hate someone all at the same time. and it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on, you're stuck right there where you first started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide on what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is watch them drift farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back on how things used to be without comparing it to how things are now... knowing that things are different, and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it."