Together forever

I can be the worse boyfriend at times, I can repeatedly do stupid shit over and over again and show that I don't deserve this girl. What can be seen from this is that I DONT learn from my mistakes.  But that can't change what I feel inside.

Now that I've realized the consequences of my actions and words, I feel like shit and theres nothing I can do because what was done is done.  I can only hope it's not to late to fix the damage Ive done.

She was my first love, the first girl since starting of highschool, and what I feel for her is far superior from that. People tell me I have the "First Love" and there is plenty of other girls that can "Get me" like she does but I beg to differ. She is special and has been for the last 9 months of my life and if I could see this girl more than a few days every half year, she would understand just how much I love her.

It sucks to be in a battle you know you are going to lose.  Who would you trust? Some person you met once or friends you see regularly....

I just hope that with the time we've spent together May 21-22, you can see how much I love you and care for you.

Forever and Ever